So, I'd just gotten a new job in the fall in management. The business was familiar, however, the title was not. Naturally, with all new jobs I'm uncomfortable with, I rebelled in my own quiet way. My mood became sour, my motivation levels went in the crapper. I was feeling rather upset and questioning many things in my life. I've had this feeling before, and it usually ties in with being uncomfortable in my surroundings. I want to get out as quickly as I can and get my life back where it used to be.
Getting out? Now, let's think about this. Seriously. Think about it. Give yourself a little time to adjust. I think it's quite normal to feel this way -- at least it has been for me. This ain't my first rodeo with feeling uncomfortable in the workplace. Long story short, things are trending up. Sparks of positivity are igniting, and the doom and gloom I felt no more than a couple weeks ago has tapered off due to familiarity with the job itself. It's a learning process. I knew this. But no less excruciating when you're going through it -- trust me, I had it rough. People were aligning against me, and my lack of knowledge was hurting me. Nice combo. But what it did to my creative side was sap pretty much all of my motivation from me. I did not write. And when I did it wasn't fun. It did not feel right. You know the meme or quote that says write under ll conditions? Yeah, right. You can't write under all conditions, especially when you're going through changes in your life that throw you way out of your comfort zone and into the dark abyss. A little melodramatic, yes, but nonetheless real. My writing is not out of the woods yet, and my creative edge is slowly but surely coming back. Yours will, too.
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